The last few days I have noticed some of my shadows...

From the sense of real connection with others and nature last week I saw some of my shadows rear their heads this weekend.

Wanting to control...

Fear about surviving...

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In the past I might have jumped ship and spiraled.

Gone into a dark place for a week or 2.

But instead by allowing my emotions and having a benevolent woman reflect my shadow back to me I feel like something has shifted.

I feel that this time of isolation (Covid-19) will bring up both the light and the dark.

This time of isolation will bring up our shining and our shadows.

This period of going within will be a time to open more to love and to heal those dark places we have feared to tread...

Maybe the grief, as I faced last night, at how unconscious I have been at times in my life, and still that shadow raises it's head.

The sadness for how we as humanity have become and stood by and watched.

The despair at how our actions can affect another.

But instead of beating ourselves up as we sometimes do, instead leaning into this feeling.

This is a time to heal these wounds that we as men (and women) have carried with us.

This is a time to lean into these uncomfortable feelings without judgement and hatred.

Just being.

Here.

Now.

This is how it feels to have become disconnected.

This is how it feels when I react in this way.

By leaning into it, I heal.

By leaning into we heal.

And those behaviours start to change.

And our hearts open not only to the love that is all around, but also to the pain and discomfort that we have been too afraid to feel.

Sure, there might be tears.

Sure, there might be discomfort because we are not used to this.

But really, your heart will expand even more and your love will start to form roots pushing their way down into Mother Earth.

Your love will spread itself up as branches into the cosmos.

And you will be a beacon for others.

And together our light will shine as one.

Yes, it is time to feel our love.

And it is also time to lean into our shadows and heal them every one.

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Many blessings,

Piers